When I went through my darkest hours, I lost all sense of my own worth. I was trapped in a bad marriage, with a husband who kept undermining me, I was nothing, a nobody. His favourite saying was- “women are all right until they start thinking.”
I had no job, no money and no future and a baby. For another five long years, I stuck it out the best I could until I reached the point where I grabbed a bottle of pills. I was on the edge of an abyss. Don’t get me wrong, I know life can be tough, and maybe my life had in someway been pretty easy going compared to other people’s lives.

Mental health is so important because it so easy to slip into a dark place. The smallest of negative thoughts can trap you into a downward spiral. The light at the end of a dark tunnel can fade and disappear. Surrounding yourself with positive people can be so uplifting. I’m lucky to have Russell in my life now, he doesn’t allow the darkness in, and keeps the wolves from invading my life.

This article isn’t long,(Click Here) but it explains why it’s important to have a positive attitude towards your mental health. Why reach for chemical solutions when natural ones are available through a simple change in your lifestyle. A brisk walk in the countryside, breathing in fresh air, a break from four walls and a keyboard creates a natural chemical reaction within our own body that improves our wellbeing.

Yes, I know it’s not easy. But a quick fix isn’t going to make the sadness disappear. It took me years to find myself in a positive place, and I still have days where the darkness hovers at my shoulders, whispering negative thoughts in my head. You’re a failure 😞 What makes you think you’re so special! You’re uneducated, you’re stupid, you think you’re clever, well you’re not!

They’re just words… words that hurt and crush the spirit!
I went to the doctor, and asked for help. He wrote out a prescription for antidepressants, I took them home and stared at the pills. Hadn’t I just taken a load to try to end the misery I was feeling, the emptiness, the loneliness. So why would I start popping pills to find another form of escape?
I flushed the pills away, and turned to another kind of help.

Talking, but most of all listening!
It’s amazing how listening to the uplifting people, music 🎶 and uplifting sounds can make to your wellbeing. It’s the same with eating the right kind of food, in the right setting.

I stepped away from the edge and found my true self, my self worth, and surrounded myself with positive people who are true to themselves. Thank you my dear friends.

Let’s make mental health a positive thing by lifting the hearts and minds of all those around us, with happiness.


  1. Thank you for sharing. I am always reminded of Ghandi’s saying… be the change in the world that you want to see. You’re a PUBLISHED WRITER,Paula… you became the change… and your readers benefit and support you.

    Go girl go, breathe deep and keep walking and writing.

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    1. Thank you for stopping by and leaving a comment. The only positive thing that came out of my experience of the darkness is I can now write from experience. Though, I tend not to want to face it head on. The trouble is I want to keep looking forward to the next positive experience to keep me buzzing.


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